自己不知道自己要的是什么，还比知道还要痛苦。
永远不了解自己在想什么， 想了太多，太少。

常常告诉自己，要懂得珍惜身边的人，珍惜真心爱你的人。
又问一下自己。。 我有做到吗？

珍惜对你好的人，因为这不是他的责任。。

李圣杰--手放开

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱

我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏人怔怔看情感概

不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白

我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋

最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌写着等待

我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

Yeah... Iphone 4 is out....~!

But..... I CANNOT BUY....

contract till NEXT YEAR SEPTEMBER leh!!!!!! haix...
if wanna buy this year september must top up 200 bucks...

sad.. continue use my long long ago samsung..

curse the person who pick up my samsung jet and dun return me... wohahhaha...

recently.. my sleeping time changed again... argh...

should i get a full time job now? hmm... or continue to tryout the ppty market and work part time leh?.. faints..

hoping for miracle...
that i will kena 1st or 2nd prize toto.. wohahahhaa!

alright!!!!!

past one mth had been working part time else where.. but had already ended!!! so im so free again??

no....

busy for my WORLD CUP 2010!!!! hahahahhaa...

no match for this 2 days.. yawns..

next one..

Friday.... Holland & Brazil.... Uruguay & Ghana!!!
tough tough decision.. keke..

but i believe brazil will still win...

wad a waste that japan was out... =( komano must be still feeling veri sad.. because.. he missed the penalty kick!
but still.. well done japan! as the only asia team who had played so far!!!!

good luck fellows~!!

HUAT AR!

after being jobless for nearly 2 mths...

will share my thoughts... hahahhahaha...

okie... but im still busy!!!!!!! 2 mths from my last day till now, i have yet to blog a single thing... yeah...

this shows how lazy and how busy i am lo...

though im considered "jobless", but have been doing part time here and there...

fun is fun... carefree... but... realli broke leh! LOL...


next next... ive got into uniSIM! tgt with hui xian and some of her colleagues.. -.-"

well... starting sch in july... that makes me even more broke!

haix....

i wan....

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

Hiyaaaaaaaa.......

I've been busy.. but.. i dunno wad im busy with.. lol~

aniway just some short updates over here..

for pple who still dunno i had resigned... now... im officially jobless! haha... Since 10th April 2010.... ok..

Had a dinner with all of them at ECP on my last day!!! =)

things have not been so smooth for the first week...

1) my beloved red sword broke
2) i lost my damn phone!!!!! on 17th april.. the day when im suppose to meet the girls for rock climbing.. -.-" but ended up.. i did not go again...
3) i nearly lost my tooth.. lol...

ok.. lucky nth else... hahaha...

went back to PLB last week...! had my sakae sushi!!! lol.... happy happy...

hmm... aniways..
currently awaiting for my uniSim enrolment results... which is like end of may?
awaiting for choooo baby birdy to grow a little bigger... so i can have one.. =x
awaiting for money to drop from the sky..... crapz.. lol...

okie.. tomorrow is gonna be a busy day for me!

shall upload some photos other days! ciaoz~!

=D



- i want a new set of fairing from thailand~~~~~ hehe..
- i want a sport rim... wohahaha..
- i wanna change the seat~!
*bling bling*
- i want the doraemon box.. ( any one know where to get? )
LOL.. -.-"

and lots more~!
any one wanna gift me? hahaha!

Somehow, i just simply don't understand why some people gotta be so damn irritating.

aniways, i find that i'm still lucky enough that my some people is only referring to 2 person.

three words...

ACTING IN ACTION... but lousy actor.

though i dun bother... but i just feel irritated... haha.. contradicting..

thanks to the 2 of who.. because.. u let me know that hows working life is about. wad is called talk but don't do. wad is the meaning of "pai ma pi".. talking craps all around. asking things which i just simply dun wanna answer. i answered still. but got sacarstics remarks. stupid. and dumb.

BUT.. PLEASE wake up from your stupid idea. cox the whole world knows abt it except for urself.. -.-"

and yes!!! so far.. i have been working at quite a few places... at different environment.. meeting different people.. but seriously.. the 2 of them are the most irritating person that i have ever seen..

but still... im grateful because i know my site got the least politics.. because there are still nice pple around.. =) because.. out of 5 pple.. only 2 ma.. cox i dun calculate the others who are not working at office. lol...

aniways... wad i have decided is decided.. appreciate those who really do care abt.. =)
can call me stubborn but.. i think i am la..

hehe... shall see! ciaoz.

有缘无份还是宁愿没遇见过来的幸福？
如果我有的选，我宁愿一辈子都没遇过。
因为没遇过，就不会觉得痛。

CNY coming!

ok.. enough of all this craps and lobsters....

aniways... 5th feb 2010!
went to Marina square to celebrate ZR belated birthday!!!
consiting of me, iris, joline, wendy, catherine and angeline!!
ok... i dunno why ZR simply loves suki-yaki.. and i simply hate it..
but still.. we are nice pple.. we still went there for dinner.. lol.

after that.. meet wh and his gf... drinks at brewerks! ... =)

... CNY coming in another 6 more days! and its like... no CNY mood still... haha...
Day 1 is a valentines day too.. and i think its gonna be so bored because no shops are opened! lol...
Day 2... wad i looking forward to! playin blackjack and mahjong??? hehe...

everyear.. after dinner we will go to chinatown... to walk around... to see fireworks there.. but.. this year he say we go bishan! -.-" oh well... shall see..

haven even get new clothes.. and i think im not gonna get any.. since im not going aniwhere.. =D

i wanna get many things!!
- iphone (4gs? when its launch? ) hehe
- mini lappie?
- should i change my spark to fino? er... hmm... mayb not lah huh..
- and.. i want an AMAZON~!~! oh damn...
- LASTLY!!! BKK TRIP!!!!

haix.. everything so costly... but its not nessacery.. haha...
its just a luxury... =(

hope that this coming TIGER year will be a better year~!~! haha... win more leh! (to myself onli)
bleh!

politics.. haha..

hmm...

somehow.. would you prefer people to speak to u directly or indirectly? prefering someone to talk one whole big round.. giving honey.. sugar... flowers.. bees.. blah blah blah and den tell u something which you dun wanna listen?

should u just thank that person that he had made an effort and time to think about the honey and sugar? or should u just find that there is no need a point for this...

so contradicting... thats human...

11 months.... not consider long... and not consider short though... time flies so fast...
i believe wad u have told me before or wad had happened u may had clean forgotten...

i hate people who talk to u nicely infront.. making it shows that u do care and concern... but behind... u know urself well wad u have said or wad u have done...
nobody else knows.. except for u urself.

i cannot blame u for anything..
because i know that u got no obligation.

I SIMPLY HATE IT.

I hate the way things happened.
I hate the reality in life.

If im able to sleep in my dreams some day..
I hope that i will never ever wake up again...

Simplicity. Sweet.

starting of year 2010...
times flies so fast.. its already 22 of january..
rewinding back.. i also dunno what i have done.. -.-"
working and working all day long... go here go there see house... hur hur..

aniways.. 15 january 10~
fishing at pprp..~!
first fish of the year..
i caught a MJ... followed by many promfet.. and 1 big ACK~ haha..
i'm so gonna stop fishing till CNY..

went daiso some day last week... after kite flying..
and...

i saw this!!!! (小熊饼干!!） --- but.. not nice de leh.. -.-"



im soooooo waiting for the damn bonus... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ -.-" don't know when den take.. haix...

tired tired..

CNY is coming.. but... i dun have any feeling of CNY leh.. think this year is gonna be very quiet..
hmmmmx..

我还爱他

-loves-

泪水将我淹没 到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉 这段感情
我才终于明白 办不到的承诺就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我才终于明白 办不到的承诺就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下

当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我不爱 我不痛 我不懂
我的心早已掏空 真心话言不由衷
请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
别告诉她 我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

marking the end of 2009~!

well.. today marks the last day of year 2009~!

definately there are ups and downs for the whole of 2009.

coming back to think of it... many things had happened...

whatever past it past... there is nothing i can do to change what had happened...
hoping to bury it deep into my memories.. or i could forget what had happened will be even better...

hoping that whatever right or wrong is done will be remembered by you...

yesterday is a history.... tomorrow is a mystery.. and the present is what we called a gift..

aniways...

wish that things will be better in this coming 2010~!
=)

love.... gNisSiM....


LETS WELCOME 2010... ~!

Wishing everyone out there.. a Happy New Year... and be blessed with lots of love~!
may we not take things for granted.. learn to appreciate and to cherish what you have... people dont owe anything to you for any reasons.. lastly... love those who loves u too~!

the damn driver

yeS!!! finalli called up my IO...

and...

this damn honda city..
black colour..

plate number:


SGY3936R!!!!!!!

please open up ur damn eyes...

CHECK MIRROR
SIGNAL
CHECK BLIND SPOT
AND THAN!!!
WHEN CLEAR
DEN U TURN IN THE LANE SLOWLY
NOT SWERVE IN...

wonder how u get ur damn license...

DAMN DRIVER.

YES!! IM SO GONNA CURSE AND SWEAR THIS DAMN DRIVER...

WHO THOUGHT SIGNAL IS A BIG DEAL.

FK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&^%$#@!@#$%^&^%$#@!

IM SO GONNA HATE HIM..

AND YES..

DAMN YOU.

6 stiches on my chin... abrasions and blue black here and there...

i know u are so not gonna get down of ur damn honda civic when u see me skided.. but lucky theres an LTA officer there!.. ccb..
still dare to tell another uncle i did hit ur car on the back??
u fking wake up ur stupid idea that its ALL BECAUSE OF U that i fell...
BUTOH!!!!!!!
DAMN...

yes.. im so going to the IO to get ur vehicle number!!!!!! and POST IT BIG BIG HERE!!!!

!@#$%^#@!@#$%@@#$%!@#$%^&

My 21st Birthday~!

yeah...

celebrated my 21st bday on 21st november 2009~!











































chefs of the day.. LOL.




thanks everyone for attending my bday party~!~!
and. not forgetting those who wishes me too~!
love u all lots lots... =D

well.. some updates on my little babies~!





o.0


HELP~@!


he loves being cuddled.. hur hur..



my baby grey~!~!

work?

had been damn busy this few weeks... workin througout the day at bridge.. doing the adgs.. zzz... finalli today had some rest at office... but still.. job still not finish... and to be continued....

was especially tired over the weekend...

reason.. came back to work on sat till around 4+? and sunday till around 6pm.. dots.. -.-"

oh!!! i hate the auntie at Terminal One canteen leh.. fk..
me: auntie ar... i wanna order this crispy noodle packet.
auntie: ok. must wait...
me: how long?
auntie: around 10 min...
me: okay.. can..
auntie: eh.. u order other food la... this one veri long...

WTH! ok.. i walk off... and order from other stall.. kns...

next ... rush home after work... prepare...
went to aloha loyang with ling ling..
for..~~ IRIS BDAY~!

ok.. stayed there for awhile..

was so damn tired.. went off around 10+...

her present for the day was... a board with a pink trumph ahem.. hahahaha... (JOLINE IS THE MASTER MIND)
and a crumpler bag...

monday.. no monday blue for me this week... but i woke up late.. -.-" cox no feeling thats a monday.. since im workin over the weekends..

so as usual.. busy busy busy...

somehow.. got my appraisel for this year...

quota quota and quota to meet for the mangement. C+ and C-... wads the difference?? in the eye of them.. its still a C... and both + or - gets the same bonus, same increment.. wads more.. was told that getting this grade.. increment is less den GST... HA.. -.-"
yes... to say... he can onli give 1 A, 2B blah blah blah... and he alreadi max the quota by one B for another colleague... somehow, i know that im not as experience as them... i dun deserve getting a B..
another point... am i SAME as another one? he got the same ma..

aiya.. fk it.. i hate it...

yes.. DUN COMPARE GIRL..

i cant say anything.. if u think i deserve to be the same .. so be it...
yes.. u say its different different different.. + and - .. but still.. it isnt. its jus a console word to say...
cox... bonus grade= $$$$

mayb i feel that i do this much but actualli it isnt...

fk it...


like what some tells me..
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QUIT =)
since its not appreciated... dun bother...
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Life is unfair.. take it or leave it..